i'm staring at the bridge. waiting in the dark.

in one of the those roller coaster moods.
you see. i find living with others very difficult.
there are things i have to keep to myself.
there are times i have to really shut myself up.
sometimes i just don't feel free.

come to think of it, the world is like that.
there is a need to be robots - emotionless, hard.
then, u begin to think to urself, what then is the meaning of life?(and other meaningless qns that no one can give an answer to)

friends. i was never alone (at least physically).
just that there's always a barrier, a distance, a need to please that keeps us away.
they are not bad people. in fact, the bulk of them are great.
its just that sometimes, i need to be myself, be mean, be selfish and be proud.
but it feels like if i do, all will be lost.
should one just be one's self or should she try and be the best person she can be?
who exactly am i living for then? MYself? or the rest of the world.


the emo bugs ar beginning to fill my head as i glare at my crazy and insane schedule.
Afraid of the coming months? DEFINITELY.
So afraid that i wish i could run away.
so afraid that i want to pee in my PJs.

its a challenge that i took up, and i'm not going to give up.
i'll fight till the end and take everything that comes.
for the future to come,
i'll be the ROBOT GIRL -- Emotionless, Hard Worker, FIGHTER.