hi. i'm princess fiona , the orge version of course.
and everyone calls me that.
not everyone is blessed with good looks
and i'm one of them.
why do i feel shit ugly.
why???
becoz no one wants me.
some ppl just had to bring that up.
time and again.

yes. i feel like shit and its driving me bonkers.
i dunno how long i can take this low self-esteem thing
cant some body jus tell me i'm beautiful or sumting nice?


so wat if im fat.. many ppl are.
but ppl love them
is it jus me??
i dun get it anymore.


i'm jus rambling on and on.
coz this is such a sensitive thing
i jus cant control myself.


at my age, it is supposed to be my prime.
if this is my prime.
i'm doomed.


i'm not picky with men.
men jus dun pick me.
get it?
they jus think i'm some fren.
some listener.
some buddy or pal or watever.


my dream is to be able to pick and choose.
but in reality its the other way round.

now that the problem is gone
and i've finally let it out.
i can tell u i feel so free.
yes, sad tt i lost a fren. but i'm free.
u noe i was feeling damn burdened and stress.
how could a frenship be tt stressful!

anyway, ignoring this sad case.
ORLANDO IS HOTTER THAN EVER IN PIRATES.
seriously it was an amazing amazing movie.
haha. not tt i had great company. hahhahahahha. (u still owe me MOOLAH for the popcorn)

but seriously it's soo hott. i wanna watch it again. and again.
like LOTR.

all 3 makes the movie complete and tt feelin is shiok.

hahhahah.
anyway. i'm free from work too.
and i got into NUS BIZ.


so currently i'm quite stressless.
but i still feel fat.
hahhaha. tts my only stress


i hope some of my frens can pick themselves up soon.
and i keep them in my prayers.

i figured tt this is the only place i can express myself freely.
i can be that selfish bitch that only wants to listen to wat i have to say
seriously, i'm putting in alot effort to make things work.
but it seems tt u are not helping.
it doesnt help when u keep showing off that u can get guys and that its so easy for u.
and yet, u still complain abt singlehood.
u noe how much i hate being single.
and yes. i dun get any guys at all.
its sooo embarrasing. when ppl get picked up all the time.
i don't. at all.
its realli irritating.
it tells me sumting abt myself.
i m jus not attractive at all.
i tell myself. i cannot have pretty frens.
then why do they always appear.
and make me feel sooo small.
u noe next to them.
no one looks at me.
i m jus nobody.
or worse still. ppl see me as a guy.
and tt sucks.
coz i'm 100% woman. jus tt no one realli gives a damn
yes i'm fat and short and ugly.
and i cant do anythign abt tt.
and this realli sucks
right after a breakup, the whole world charges and wants to date u
and ur poor fren over here jus doesnt get anything . at all.
u complain and complain.
but how does tt make me feel.
i think i;ve heard enuff.

and i haven even touched on the way u treat me. and our "frenship"

Welcome To My Life


Do you ever feel like breaking down?yes
Do you ever feel out of place? always
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you everyone thinks i'm wrong
Do you ever wanna runaway? from your whining? yes
Do you lock yourself in your room? i want to
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming i wish i could do that

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt yes, u like to cast me aside.
To feel lost i have no one to turn to.
To be left out in the dark that night in zouk remember?
To be kicked when you're down thanks for reminding me i cant get guys
To feel like you've been pushed around to have to listen to ur every word and be at ur disposal
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you yup theres no one.
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else? all the time. someone prettier and more attractive
Are you sick of feeling so left out? definitely. i dun want to be with ur frens.
Are you desperate to find something more? like love? frenship? looks? self esteem?
Before your life is over it feels like it already is
Are you stuck inside a world you hate? not reallie.
Are you sick of everyone around? only a few of them. YES VERY SICK
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted yes u get every men and i dun.
Never had to work it was always there and i have to try my best everytime because i'm short fat and ugly
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

it was a blast from the past.
xcellent cheers team spirit
and loads of partying
wat else could i ask for? (maybe more handsome men)
haha.
the pictures tell all

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