i dunno wat to say..
it's a beautiful day..
and i'm seeing utt tonite.. its like a dram come true...
ah...
utt

hey hey..
i juz cut my hair real short again.. hah
its so cooling and neat man.. and i think that i look realli cool...
hah... now waiting for my tutor to come.. ]
hey thks grassy for pei-ing me to the hair dressers...
the guy we saw on the mrt is realli cutre haha...
juz kidding...

well... now i have a new look again..
tonite there's idol
i gtg bye

New vision in life: PUSH ALL BLAME TO SELF

It realli works.. coz i got this feeling tt ppl think that watvea i say or do is wrong..
i'm always the devil...
its realli sucky...
furthermore... i dunno hu to trust.. my frens are "sleeping wif the enemy"
like I'm the king of the castle... the person(in fact ppl) hu i trust most... are wif my enemy.. how do u expect me to trust them anymore...


I'm seriously trying to control my temper.. if i dun... i'm afraid of the consequences...
so now i hav decided to push all kinds of blame to myself...and juz try and cope wif all of it...
so remember... wateva happens its all my fault..ok...

Homecoming day was a big hit man
haha...
i m soo damn tired....
hee hee
today i helped abel wif his lit project damn idiotic
haha
erm...
welll this week i have learnt this : the ppl hu are closer to you are the ones hu can hurt u the most...
there is this person hu i wanna kill... i hate her.. i realli do.. some ppl know... some ppl dun... i realli do hate her...

forget abt her ok... lets move to other stuff...
i realised sumting... so many things have been happening and i am oblivious to them..
i was talkin to a great fren of mine the other day and i realised that i was not onli the one facing problems wif frenship... i thinkl that my social circle is in a total mess... i'm begging to lose my usefulness...
i feel so used by so many ppl even in terms of manual labour.. i dunno how to explain it...


that day i felt so relaxed after speaking to him and crying my heart out... i felt tht i liked listening more than speaking.. i realli do.. but ppl seldom do tt to me.. they want me to speak.. and i am tired of tht.. i realli wanna be the listener...
can ppl pls speak to me.. i mean.. i'm so lost now.., i feel tt no one believes in me..
i'm so lost until i dunno wat i'm saying..

haha

i'm tired.. i gtg to bed... nite