i've tot it out,
i've cried it out.
its been 2 days.
i'm still healing.
i need to feel like i'm constantly needed and loved.
thats all.
coz i've been hurt a lil deep this time round.
i guess it was over-confidence and high expectations on my part.

come to think of it, i really think that it was probably a good thing.
its kinda lucky that i din go into it so quickly.
at least there was control.
we were probably too different.
too different for something to happen.

i was jus too soft hearted. just because i finally got the princess treatment i always longed to have. and just over one day, everything turned upside down.
somethings will always remain a mystery to me.
i cant help but question them time and again.


i need to heal. i just need more time.
its probably better that i can do stuff with my frens now that i probably wont be able to do if i were attached.

well, i'll just enjoy the moment. and i noe the right one will come along.
i just hope we'll still be friends though.
it was a great frienship that i dont wan to lose.
but not now, i cant face u yet.
and for the moment.just stop asking my friends out.
thank you.

now i fully understand,
i cannot fall again.

its over again.

one more.

oh well.
wat can i do.

but cry myself to sleep

life is a road and i wanna keep going,
love is a river i wanna keep going,
now and forever wonderful journey.
i'll be there when the world stops turning,
i'll be there when the storm is through.
In the end, i wanna be standing at the beginning with you.


wah. this song. is so meaningful to me.
i wonder why.
but anyway.
it keeps playing in my head.
and i can only wonder what exactly is gonna happen next.
oh well. i wished it would be : "now here we stand, unafraid of the future"
but will there even be a future.



wah . soo confusing man.
its like cant it just be more clear?
how many ppl are u this nice to?
headache!!!!!!!!!!!



okok. to make myself happier. i'll go back my song.....

super heated up right now.
argh.
some ppl like to spoil my almost perfect day.
u noe i had sooo much fun with ugly kwan.
and then now. my day is ruined.
to think that i was looking forward to tmr.
wat a waste of time.
i'm super irritated.
wat if i din ask.
u wont even bother telling me.
bastard.
freaking angry right now.
BS BS BS BS BS.
u jus simply forgot.
u see. it shows how much u care.
u obviously dun.
and i shuldnt too.
u noe wat
i dun care anymore.
i jus dun wan to.
i tot that it was gg the right way.
looks like it isnt.
so i'm jus gonna leave right now.

am i not allowed to fall in love?

everytime i finally get a nice guy by my side.
i always think that there's always a chance.
some times. its more than one guy.
then i start to lose my cool
and the soft spot steps in.
i dunno if its becoz i've been alone for too long.
but this always happens.
when i finally have a guy being all nice to me.
the next thing i noe.
they like someone else.
am i just meant to not fall in love.
and stay alone?
am i not pretty enough.
why do u all see right through me?
why do i always fall for the wrong guy?
i jus dun get it.
why am i always the friend, the buddy, the sister, the idiot.
not the ONE, the lovely, the beautiful person.
ALL that BLAH BLAH BLAH. u are a pretty girl BLAH BLAH BLAH.
ALL that BS. is nth.
everything means nth.
and there is nth i can do.



i guess i am jus not worth it.