k. its been a long long time
many things have changed.
and i can say..
i'm a changed person
i used to say i hate this
i hate that.
but now i ask myself... what is hate?
all 17 yrs of my life.
i've learnt to hate and remember the pain.
i've learnt tt hate cannot be stopped.. its in my blood.
u dun need a reason to hate.
u jus... well..hate...
well,
after goin back to church.
i've learnt a whole lot.
i can say tt He has been there when i was at my lowest.
but how do i noe he is?
i din believe it whole heartedly until this
juz 2 weeks b4 i was traped inmy little world of anger and hate.
i din noe wat to do
i told myself
i cannot forget and
how am i suposed to forgive?
haiz.
life was sooo soo bad tt i almost went back into my depression stage.
it took my great frens: classmates, brothers and sisters to pull me out from the deepest end
u see,
the past still haunts me. and i cannot let go.
but tt day came.
production.
something tt i'llnvr forget.
the pain, anger, tears, sweat for months
and it all ended wif aBANG
ilove thecast: gapi, baby, kelvin(eee), edwin,anan, travis, xanthia, tanya, isa, andrew,aaron, alex neo, bok, etc ( cast list toolong..sorri if idininclude ur name)
production was where i felt free..
production was my 2nd home.
withoutthis wonderful experience.
i wouldnt have known all these great ppl.
i love them all
as i write this
my heart melts.
i miss it..
i miss it a whole lot
wif "sweet dreams" playing in my head.
i rmbr the times we try so hard to do our scenes.
oh my.
ilove production.
i juz do.
i'll blog another time abt the litproduction.
tt nite was special.
someone cameover me.
it was none other than the Lord our God.
He gave me that strength that i've always wanted butnvr had.
He helped me to forgive.
I just noe tt it was Him.
God,
i just want to Thank YOU for being there for me.
for making me a stronger person.
i Love You Lord,
and i know You love me too.
Please continue to bless me and all around.
and be there for us till the end of time.
