yummy addict.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

for now.. death toll has risen to a total no. of 80,000.. wat they need is like blankets and stuff.. especially malaria pills, purification pills and medical supplies... ppl u guyz can refer to straits times for info on how to donate to them. for ppl that do not have straits timeswith u. i will now give u guyz the info:

>> New Drop off venus
For Thailand: Second Land Rover Convoy leaves tomorrow. Send over-the-counter drugs, wound dressings and vitamins,canned food, blankets and sheets to 11 Watten View by tonoght. Volunteer Drivers will deliever them to Thai relief agencies in Krabi. Contact indi Trust : 90011211

>> General Collection( for eg canned and pakaged food, drugs,wound dressing, vitatmins,clothing,blankets and sheets)
SPH: news centre, 1000 Toa Payoh North. Until Jan 5. 9am to 6pm daily.
Spore Poly: Drive through donation at Convention Centre. Till Jan 7 Weekdays: 9am tp 9pm
Donation at counters along the walkway from Dover MRT to scholol. Weekdays :6pm to 9pm.
Tisarana Buddist Association, 90 Duku Road. by Jan 1. open from 1pm.
tel: 63456741/63910031/96751695. Pack into bags or unselaed boxes labelled Male, Female or Children.

>> Only Purification Tablets to Hotel royal, 36 newton road, #03-30. Tel: 62581778. week days: 1pm to 6pm

*the rest is for money donations*
organisations include: Singapre Red Cross Society, Salvation Army, SPH, DBS, PoSB. CHangi General Hospital and AXS machines. see websites for details.

Pls continue to support or fellow ASIANS.... Donate generously

2:51 pm

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Tsunami Disaster strikes Asia

Death Toll: 63,000
As the death toll of the Tsunami victims reach over 63,000 people. diseases and lack of aid in the terror stricken countries are believed to cause more deaths in the next hour. we are very lucky that we are now safe in singapore while some 16 fellow singaporeans have yet to be found. among those missing are children like Jean Lee Mak. after watching how the tidal waves swept so many children away, it makes us feel very helpless coz there's nothing we can do to save them. the only way to helpt he people there is to give them the necessary supplies and financial help that they need. i believe that as an FC we can raise some money and try to help the people there. so what do you guyz think abt it? Lets all be thankful that we're still living and help the people around us. Lets all pray regardless of what religion we belong to for this disaster to end.
come on pppl. look at our fellow asiaz.

and look at us.. we enjoy lives and take things for granted and look at them.. wif no family, no frenz left yet they still live on... lets give them aid.. pls.. hlep... they do not have food and water.. so donate generously. dun u feel like crying when the reports come on tv... pls ppl.... lets love each other more...

may peace be restored once again...

God Bless

6:26 pm

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

surprise.. i'm happy!!

today was like a total dream come true...

i met up wif julian hee...

oh my gosh.. in my dreams.. then i get to see

him standing here in front of me...

like ahhhh...

he's gorgeous...

and i was so so nervous.. i was practically melting..

he autographed my mag and we took photos..

ahh....

he's soso nice.. and cute...

ah...

julian.. u rock...

i will realli treasure this day and the shirt tt u touched..

haha... now i will never run away..

like an idiot

hahah...

lookin forward to seeing u again...

julian rocks..

and thank u SLB for the farewell...

love all u ppl...

ok.. now theserious part...

now the death toll is at 60000 ppl dead...

i realli hope tt we all can treasure our lives even more... and juz try to help out the ppl affect.. god bless us all.

lets all pray for the ppl.

hope the children are safe...

love ur life

11:39 pm

Sunday, December 26, 2004

warnin to all geezfran loyal readers:

the blog entries will get pretty depressing.

juz read and dun ask k.\

i'm juz not in the mood for stuff these days...

my xmas wasnt great and onli a few know why

i am the stupidest person alive.

but anyway..

i 'm certainly not lookin forward to jc and orientation..

its nt the school, its the ppl.

i wanna run away.

there's no prupose of staying anymore..

shuld i juz give up.

i'm in bad shape for now.

i juz need time, lots of time to recover.

wish me luck.

merry xmas!

10:56 pm

Friday, December 24, 2004

i realli went on star search this week...

yesterday me and the julian ofc et up... julian was like suppose to meet us...

we waited since 2 then at ard 4 his manager msg clara... saying he's not comin coz filiming delayed... could see the disappointment on all of our faces.. everyone wsa like so sian after tt...

but i met realli nice frenz... rachel, clara, joycelin, crystal, yuqing, joanne, vanessa, siti, valerie, marilyn, celena.. haha... all from the forum..

the ppl there are like so nice.. other forums are bitchy

but the ppl here are so nice...

haha

i love the forum.. so i'm gonna frequent it..

but julian.. haiz.. we were realli sad...

so cum next gathering u better turn up... coz we tot u realli din care..

haiz...

then we went to see robin leong at chi'...

he was soo cool and gorgeous...

haha... and according to joycelin... he said tt we were cute...

i think i can faint.. haha...

today we went to watch fiona film at kallang kfc.. and she kept lookin at us..

i muz confess i used to dislike fiona.. but oh my goodness now i'm in her fan club..

she's such a super nice person...

like wow... ahhh... she hugged me and took a photo wif me... i almost died smiling.. hee hee..

she's so cute.. damn those ppl tt critisize her.. rite rach..

haha...

she''s so so so nice.. realli wanna go out some other time ok...

haha...

all this star search is making me tired.. so i gtg....

hee hee...

< >

*STARSTRUCK ONCE AGAIN*

1:39 am

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

i guess i nvr recovered

i feel sad so easily.. why?

u noe.. everything affects me so much but not anyone else..

i am upset. but u r not..

guess.. everything will end... soon...

i will be gone...

i dunno why..

my inner self its out...

i'm out of control..

i'm so sorry

for eveything tt i've done...

1:01 am

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

time to write again...

have u ever felt tt u like ur frenz more than they like u..

they have like best pals and u r not included...

how would u feel....

u treat them like ur best bud.. but it doesnt sem to be the same..

that wat if u sms them or tok to them.. there's no response...

maybe u r juz needed for company..

or am i thinking too much...

i realli dunno

1:50 am

Monday, December 20, 2004

Time to do a recap of 2e4 class chalet...

remember the place i used to call paradise?

well.. its now hell to me...

thanks to some idiot living next door..

we can onli whisper to each other at the chalet...

on wed and thurs... my frenz and i were prettty much in chalet mode and so we received complains...

then came saturday...

2e4 peeps were like super understanding...

i told them... how i got complained..

and they juz tried their best to be as quiet as possible...

imagine tokin and tokin the whole night..

trying to be as considerate as we could...

and yet, that hell out of an ass hole had to write an official complaint letter to the management...

if any of the management sees this..

pls note tt we did try our best and so there's nothing more tt we can do...

and mr guard on duty. for saturday nite...

u were not doin ur job..

u told us u tot that we were extrememly noisy and u juz din bother to stop us...

how the bloody bloody hell would we noe how noisy we were...

wats ur damn problem.. we paid money too...

i hope u ppl understand... this is a chalet!!

like hello.. we have to act as if we're at the library...

lucky for us, kitty( management) sorta helped us wif that neghbour.. and she said tt everything was fine...

as i was abt to open the door to room 3, i heard water splashing in the shower...

i tot there was a theif or something...

so i juz rushed into the toilet...

to my horror.. THE PIPE BURST!!!

the toilet was flooding and i did not noe wat to do..

the boys tried turning it off but nth stopped it..

hui yong ran to the reception and asked for help..

apparently, the guy din believe tt we came back and even accused us of spoilin the pipes...

after checking and turning the main supply off..

his face no longer showed any suspicion and even asked if there would be any inconvienience...

as sucky as that place is.. there are still nice ppl...

in order to keep ourselves entertained tt nite...

the boys decided to try fishing...

haha.. any boy did they try..

they got tangled up, broke lines, cut up worms and all kinds of stuff.. in the end,

they caught a small marlin or something like tt..

the poor little fish was left in the pail for the whole and died in the wee hours of monday morning..

as two of the boyz were jokin ard at abt 8pm in our chalet...

our neighbour shouted:" you two are too loud.. SHUT UP!!"

like hello... its onli 8 pm....

so sickening... my frenz were juz running...

so lame..

so we went to tampines mall to have fun...

some of us realli digged kbox.. haha..

i realli had so so much fun...

last nite we had a realli nice security guard...

he said tt we could talk at the bbq pits and even opened up the hall for us to sit ard and tok...

he was realli veri nice..

at the bus stop before we left..

he toked to us abt the complain letter and even shared how we felt...

haha...

i realli hope the damn club would change how it operates becoz...

a chalet is for pl to have fun.. not sit ard and sleep...

its impossible...

its already so ulu.. why have so many restrictions and make ppl not want to enter this place again....

its veri obvious to us club members tt business is realli bad...

so why make it worse by making us hate the place....

and to our sickening foregin neighbour..

i seriously have nth against angmohs...

but now...

i cant stand how u think u own the world...

why must the club side u...

the next time i see u...

i'll make sure u pay..

coz i hate u...

but still i would like to thank all my 2e4 frenz tt made this whole thing possible...

and a big sorry for making this chalte so boring...

WE ALL HATE CHANGI SAILING CLUB!!!

2:10 pm

Friday, December 17, 2004

I realised why i have so many "frenz"!

well... i realised why such an irritating person like me could hav so many frenz...

firstly i have frenz hu see me as an ATM,

they love it when there are chalets they dun have to pay or juz free stuff...

becoz i'm ard.. and if u need the $$ , juz pretend to be nice to me..

and wif one kaching!! u'll get it....

sorrie to disappoint u ppl...

but my finances have been drained...

i'm broke...

yes.. i'm broke....

suprise... the atm has no cash!!!

so stop asking for spare cash.. coz i cant survive myself....

stop it...

frenz no 2 are those hu nvr tok to me for a whole year...

disappearing from my life...

then reappearing again when it is posting and SYF is near...

bands are realli desperate these days...

a lousy trumpet player like me have invites...

and these ppl juz become such good frenz wif me

so i'll do them the favour and join their band..

while i suffer and try to help the band,

these seniors get the recognition they nid...

how nice....

how would u feel if most of ur frenz juz nid ur help all the time?

how woulfd u feel if u are being used...

this will nvr end unless i put a stop to it...

so i am broke and i cant play the trumpet anymore....

GIVE IT UP!!!

10:26 pm

Thursday, December 16, 2004

I'm back from the chalet!!

i reallised tt i hate pink...

haha.....

juz as i expected.. i din hav anyfun... haha... i dunno la... last nite was the longest nite i hav experienced... i dunno... perhapes it was becoz i was like alone and had nth to do...

i felt so bad tt i went back to tt trance like state tt i cannot control... ahhh!!!

i'm like crazy again... and haha.. i cant help it....

i felt like i was there to do work for others... not sit down and enjoy...

i dunno...

i felt so miserable...

after last nite i think i can win hong xing da jiang

cool huh....

i had to pretend i was happy... pretend tt i liked the people there....

no prizes for guessing hu... haha....

it was veri gou wei..... veri xin ku.....

and my mood was terrible....

ahhh!!!!! i'm like so sian now.....

kinda regret goin lor.... haiz... juz so not happy....

i'm killin myself...

haha......

thank you to those hu tried to make me feel much better...

and no thank you to those i dun reali like...

haha.....

oh ya.. while walking pass changi village yesterday afternoon... zhi hao suddenly shouted:"julian hee"

for fun, i turned back...

to my suprise, it was him... there he was mr.julian hee... walking towards us....

foolishly, i ran away coz i was too nervous and my frenz were shouting fiona xie.....

i could have taken a photo wif him... ahhh....

anyway.. julian if u happen to see me again... say hi.... ahhh!!

STARSTRUCK

9:31 pm

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I dunno why but i juz suddenly feel wierd!!!

from the amt of entries, u all can seee how bored i am...

i hav like nth to do...

tml will be my next chalet which i i hav my doubts...

juz this sudden feelin that i wont be able to enjoy myself....

would i be sitting alone... writing my new book...

or will i be wif da crowd which i realli enjoy....

guess not...

like the dudes of my batch are all not goin...

so like i'll be like so not tt clique...

ppl dun feel offended...

this is juz a case of PMS.... let me wrte....

i'm realli afraid....

these two days... i dunno...

i dun feel good at all...

especially now...

everyone else is like so super excited bout tml..

but me...

i dunno... juz no excitement....

i think i'm like crazy already....

PMS PMSPMS>>>>>> in pain>>>>>>

haha...

goodbye...

5:54 pm

Monday, December 13, 2004

Yet again another depressing entry

sitting here in front of the com...

i get so so depressed... i dunno why... i juz hate feeling bored... and i hate to think tt everyone else is having fun but me..

i sit here alone at home... thinking to myself.. wat can i do...

i bored and all alone by myself thinking bout the things tt make me unhappy.

there's many things deep inside tt i push aside when i am happy.

but when i hav nothing to do.. i think back at my sad life,,,,

look at me now.. no one talks.. except the wall.. i wished it did..

i nid the company of people tt i care about...

do u noe.. how much it menas to me when i feel important..

but now i feel so empty inside....

i want to laugh and cry wif frenz... i wanna poke fun and joke ard wif all of u...

u dunno how great it feels to feel included...

not like now...

i feel so alone....

so left out.....

pls... dun let things stay like this,,,,

i nid the company of ppl...

so hu will it be nexst to me...

making me feel better....

i will wait for u.....

haiz... something i wrote tt is kinda sad... but tt juz me.. maybe later i'll feel better.. or would i?

2:58 pm

Sunday, December 12, 2004

THE STAR AWARDS ARE FINALLY OVER!!

haha... it is over.. and i'm having mixed feelings...

i remember my first star awards in'94!! loyal supporter of zoe... haha... those were the days.. today when i saw linanxing, zoe tay and chew chor meng go up on stage and receive the greatest honour... i nearly burst into tears... it was like so touching... 16 years.. i grew up watching all these shows... ahh.... how i wish one day i could also be like them... becoming singapore's super stars... these veterans have truly proven that they have wat it takes to be our superstars... this was a well deserved nite as veterans like li yin zhu and xie shao guang got wat they deserved.. especially for lin yin zhu hu has nvr gotten any award... she is realli veri good and deserves every bit of it... xie shao guang is like best actor.. and we all noe tt he is the best... its kinda sad though, as this is his last year... he is moving on and becomin a monk... i wish him all the best...

ivy lee... congrats... haha... yaxi realli deserves it.. i realli like her work attitude.. despite how difficult it is to be a mother of twins, she continues to act in xi lin men 2... a well deserved award...

some ppl juz dun deserve the awards... pardon me but i realli canot take it... PHYLLIS QUEK!!

wat the hell? did she act in any show? even if she did... she is not good at all... super untalented... artiste networks realli like calling hor... this year no zhen xue er... so call for phyllis more lor.... sickening.... sian liao le... hope this will stop!!!

Joanne peh! ok la.. not too bad.. but other ppl like ruien or felicia chin deserve it more... i cant take it... lux is veri rich...

jeanette aw!!

i dunno wat to say.. haiz.... not veri good lor.. quite unnatural...

SICKENING!!

poor fiona.. i realli wanted u to get ur award... ahh!!

u were like so good this year... next year sure get one....

i will call next year... ahhh!!! fiona.. dun lose hope...

the rest i'm al rite!! Zoe jia you and good luck.. to all the pregnant mummies... haha.. all the best!!

I love local talent!!

10:18 pm

Saturday, December 11, 2004

yo everyone!!!

i'm in happy happy mood now... haha... my hair is now highlighted... i love it so so much.. ah... i cant stop staring at myself in the mirror... haha.. vain... but... i love it... wonder if i can hav tt in JC but hu cares... haha... i lovemy parents man.. they allow me to do almost everything i wan... haha...i love my hair... its like so nice.... even cal says its nice.. he wants to do his.. but cal... pls wait for after o's...i for one waited for 4 whole years.. haha.... did i mention? I love my hair... haha.. i'm so self obessed,... this is the first time ever... haha....

hey fren: dun be so upset abt stuff ok... i've gone thru depression like so many times... tt i cant count.. haha... well.. the onli way is to not think too much and tt can onli be achieved if ur totalli ocupied... its simple... grab a few close frenz and get outta ur nest.. haha... play and forget abt the stuff... remember tt u'll always have frenz like me, by ur side like u were by mine at my worst moments... so yup... i'll be ur shoulder to cry on... so come and look for me anytime... and i'll attend to u... haha... i'm such a great fren eh? (haha)

to fren no2: i'm so glad tt we're pals again.. i hope our frenship will get to another level veri sooon... i feel so relaxed when u're ard now.. so diff from the old days... haha... i dunno how to describe how i've missed u.. so so much... haha... i'm juz so so glad u're back... haha... thank you veri much....

to all mi frenz out there: i love u guyz.. every single one of u.... haha... i'm crazy.... nitex

11:06 pm

Thursday, December 09, 2004

I'm back from chalet no.2!!!

shucks i think i'm crazy abt chalets... i dunno.... it seems so fun... seriously... i'm so so suprised tt i enjoyed this one so much... i actualli miss it now... cant believe it... haha.. to think that i realli din wanna go.. i was so afraid... haha..

KIDS: go to bed.. its late.. haha...

i juz felt kinda satisfying lookin after the younger ones haha..... its like wierd... i'm like dying to hav another one... i;m like speaking like a bimbo...

anyway... i'm bored again coz i'm kinda used to not sleeping in the nite... haha... i nid to like tok to some one... i'm like so bored.............. hahaha... i'm a bit wacko due to the lack of sleep.... haha....

i think i better stop... i dunno wat i'm typin... so...
oh ya... i saw like dunno how many shooting stars.. it was so sweet... i think tt the coolest part was tt i was able to spend time wif the ppl tt i care abt.. haha... i loved both chalets..... i want some more.... ahhhh.... i better go before my head explodes or sumting... bye!! zzzZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZ

10:45 pm

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Back fr0m paradise!!

i would like to thanks ll that helped me in preparing this prom.. haha... i know how nervous i have been... but now... haha.. i'm happy... although i looked like an ah lian... haha.. ppl still liked how i look... haha.... i had a wild time..... dancing....!!!

i'm trying upload some stuff but my damn com cant do it... sickening.. haha... i know i may always sound depress but i try not to... haha... realli trying... i guess i smile much more now....

well, certain things i hav to recap...haha... lets see... when i was on the dance floor shaking my somewhat big booty, in my mind i was trying to think of ways to get back some friendship tt i once lost... i dunno... but i think this whole matter is making me seem so despo... i guess u dun care anymore... not like last time... and its all my fault.. its veri sad to lose someone so dear to u... so well... i was kinda hurt when u sorta pushed me away... well, ya i was damn sad after that.,.. but now, i guess i juz hav to let go... forget u.. and juz treat u like a mere aquaintence... its tough but i gotta try... all the pathetic conversations we hav on msn.. ya well.. it juz makes me look patehetic and needy.. but well... all i tried to do was to salvage our frenship and since u dun wan tt to haoppen... i shall stop....

then there was YOU: u went out of my life for abt one year and now u try to come back in it.. it ltook me ONE year.. ONE WHOLE year... do u noe how hard i worked... do u now how tough it has been.... den shit you... you had to ruin everything... maybe it doesnt matter to u at al... hah... u muz hav been realli bored so u decided to msg me rite? guess u din noe how shitty i felt... u want to frenz... why? becoz ur sch band needs a trumpeter.. rite? tts all u nid... then u can gain recongnition... freak... wat do u treat me as? huh? anyway... i'll juz treat u like a "fren" and keep nocontact wif u.. tts all... and i wont ever step into ur school.....

this other person doesnt knoe anything... and i wont tell u... haha... too bad

thanks to all my frenz.. i had a great prom and chalet... it was so fun hanging out wif frenz tt care for u and not ppl who want u to pay for their chalet then kick u out... haha... or ppl tt were onli happy when u gave them FREE photos... yes... i may be well off but hu will pay for everything... u guyz juz take me for granted... my face look like cash is it? my forehead got the words ATM is it? i feel tt all i hav done for the class has nvr been appreciated... so hahaha..... i'm glad i dun hav to do anymore... HAHAHAHAHA>>>>>>>>> DAMN BLOODY HAPPY!!!

my chalet damn fun la... it was next to the beach... karoke, bowling, food, gambling.. haha... i realli miss those days... now i realli wan another one... haha.... CHANGI SAILING CLUD ROCKS except for the fact tt it is ulu, run down, no tv, got insects, got cats, got dogs, dark, haunted........etc... haha... but it was my paradise.. i dunno why i juz feel so relaxed whenever i am dere... unlike coasta sands, we can make as much noise as we want... haha... coasta sands always giv me a veri stiffling feeling... dunno why... but i'm goin there on monday.. hope tt everything will be alright... haha....

anyway.. to the ppl i promised tt i will go to the band BBQ.. sorrie hor... ur senior was lazy.. and so... haha.... i feel realli bad... really.... but i promise tt i will attend the band chalet ok? haha... sorri man....

haha..... i will try to upload my photos and video soon.. haha... stay tuned....

2:42 pm