right here...

i would like to apologise to all those that tried their best and put in so much effort to try and let me forget what had happened...

as you guyz know.. i've been not very happy and i tried very hard to crawl out of it..
unfortunately it still affects me...

its not that you all have not put in much effort.. its juz that i cant forget....

haiz.. so sori

hope that you guyz will forgive me...

nowadays.. i seem more quiet than ever...

now my greatest fear is being lonely.. its all thanks to someone.. make me change so much

this person is such a jerk... u ppl shuld know hu...



i dunno why.. i m sorta anti-social perhaps coz there is still ppl whom i dun like...
alot...

haiz...
being pangsehed by 3 ppl in 1 day is bad u know....


cant describe....
my mood turns so bad that i could even kill...
i dunno la.. juz sometimes feel so upset at these ppl...


last nite, i looked at the beach of east coast park as the sun slowly lowered into the dark clouds
i juz loved the feeling of escaping and standing there...
it felt like the sand and waters were my frens..

i began writing on the sand...
i miss aussie's sand and sea...
it was nothing compared to this... haiz...


u guyz may think that i m being petty...
well.. u dunno what i hav been thru...
and u dunno me well enuff....

yesterday was a sick day for me

thinking that i would spend my day wif 2 of my closer frenz, i went out quite happily

i had to attend a meeting and i was realli cheerful that day... then veri suddenly but not surprising...
my fren received an sms...
the other fren... said: i am not goin tonite but i've got a replacement

hearing this
me and my fren imediately got fed up
this is the 3rd time this person stood us up...
and being stood up and as i like to call pang sehed its more of a criminal offence to me
i hate being stood up


well... that's sorta brings a stop to our frenship as the damage or shuld i say the wound has been deepened
it is a scar left in our frenship
maybe ppl think that i'm petty but to me a promise is a promise...
if u dun fufil it.. dun make it....

haiz...
later in the nite..
i was supposed to go home wif this grp of 5
asking them so many times if they were goin home wif the other grp.. they said no... so they were going wif us..
great... i thought to myself... at least i wont be so lonely going home...

the concert sucked anyway and ppl still diaoed me..

i couldnt wait till it finished so that i could run away from these ppl...
expectin to go home... they told me.. we r goin out to eat wif them.. u guyz noe how to go home urself rite....
i was like huh? wat? wat happen? then i still had to face the diaoing...
shit...

after that when i had the chance.. i walked as quickly as possible and got to the mrt station..
luckily i had a fren hu chased after me....
the rest din even bother....
they din even notice i was angry until they received my sms....

well that night realli proven our frenships and how impt i am to these ppl...
so dun act as if we r so close.. coz it has been proven that we arent...
so quit acting....
bull shit...

now waiting for my turn for tuition... still got one more hour...
i m soo tired...
haiz..
this sat still hav to go for the chs concert sian..
i hate them the most man...
haiz...

cant wait for the next gathering...
washed the pics today... some veri nice...
some not
aussie photos all of the animals...
no ppl one... haha
the camp photos veri cute.. but in black and white.. bbq too..
those hu wan see.. cum find me...
haha


thats all i hav to say for now...
byez hate hmwk

i had kinda of nice time yesterday...

took neoprintx again
wif my jie, simteng , guizhi ,weisheng and zhi hao...
haha... play and play until the shop lady scold...

yesterday my bowling sucked man.. no good at all
haha

yesterday keep laffin at my voice.. i know my voice veri sexy... haha
today its ok liao
still veri low pitch but better le..
yay

see ya soon.. dunno wat to say...

i'm back from camp and aussie..


sorry din realli have the time to blog...
the 606 BBQ was sooo great yong ping thanks alot and the rest of u too...
haha...
we shuld have another gathering soon...


hey... those at band camp... realli veri happy that u guyz enjoyed it.. and thanks for the smses to thank us for the camp..
i hope that now that u guyz noe each other better... things will improve...
i know my mood was a little bad.. coz i wasnt feeling veri well... and veri stressed up too.. bhut seeing u guyz enjoy yourselves was the best part of all..
i really treasured the time spent there and lookin at the shooting stars...


my aussie trip rocked...
i went to movie world, wet and wild and dream world....
sooo fun.. love the kids the most... they are sooo cute....
hahaa...... i went to harbour town, pacific fair and australian fair to shop...
onli one word can describe the shopping.... HIONG ah!!!

the beach was juz soo great and we even collected some white lams.. its so interesting... until they died and stunked... ewwwwwwwww...........
hhaahahahaha

too bad we din have much sun for summer... haiz... wanted to get reallli black.. but tooo bad.... now already black enuff le.... hahaha

got a tatoo on my back.. a realli cool butterfly..... hee hee and hair dye too... (temporary ones) they are sooo natural...

i realli missed spore....
the food there was..... erm... YUCKY!!!

so many ppl puked during the trip.. eww. and that includes me... i puked last nite on my way to the airoprt and twice on the plane.. and even till now my stomach still feels bad....

i am now officially quiet... i LOST MY VOICE...ahahahhhahahahhahahhaa...

the last person on this planet to stop talkin actually cant tok....

imagine that..

i hope i recover soon.. asap...
miss all u guyz sooo much....


hee hee...
see ya...

or as they say: "gd day mates...."

over and out